You have an important question to answer for yourself sooner than later. Your decision can make a big difference in how happy you are on your bike.
Do you want to be a license carrying person who enters races, or do you want to do "challenge" "gravel grinder" or "fondo" type rides?
I don't race much at all, but I have had a different experience in dipping the tip of my toes in the pond on the race side versus the "fondo/challenge" side of things.
You can private message, as I'd rather not muddy the waters with my experiences so far with that.
Otherwise, you're doing fine. Do what you enjoy. I would suggest at some point joining a local group ride at some frequency. Even in fondos you need some larger group skills and those rides will help with that confidence.