I’d rather lose badly trying than not trying? I’m hard on myself?
I dunno. I think the real answer is that maybe I’m not having fun and the rest is just stuff I overthink to rationalize trying again.
Given the time input I have for this, I do more than fine. Realistically. It just doesn’t feel that way.
I also don’t have a great chance to contribute towards a sense of “belonging” to racing. My fault only.
Although, everyone today was super nice. Nicer than a lot of hammer rides I do even. Made me wonder about what I’m missing.
Maybe until I have more time someday to contribute to it, I need to be content. And maybe focus on a few more reasonable goals, like maybe TT PR’s.
Again, all on me. The thinking is about analyzing if the time I have for this is worth what I get out of it.