I am not a veteran and I am fortunate not to have suffered any major physical injuries yet, but I do want to add to the encouraging voices who urge you to get some help if you need it, and to have no shame in walking away from what frustrates you temporarily. As others have said, thank you for your service. I work for a health care concern, and there has been a marked shift in emphasizing access to mental health services over the past few years. I appreciate that you’ve taken time to vent in what I hope feels like a safe community — I often get the sense that we look out for each other here. If you are not seeing a behavioral health specialist, I encourage you to reach out to your primary doc or reach out to the VA.
I hope I’m not stepping out of line to post a link to mental health resources for the Salt Lake VA:
https://www.saltlakecity.va.gov/serv...tal_health.asp
Wishing you good health and peace.